Hello my friend, I’m Tony!
Thank you for stopping by!
My calling in life is to inspire people to transform the world to Peace. I’m here to guide you to find meaning and your zest for life. So that you can be of service and contribute your love for the world.
It took me years to find the sauce to life—and that is loving who I am and living a life of purpose from my heart. I’m here to support you on your journey.
Here’s My Story…
I was severely abused as a child.
I was a bully in school. If you’re bullied at home, then you bully others.
I was a party animal who drank a lot on weekends, the life of the party, and who got into bar room fights and hurt people. Sadly, I physically hurt people and the reality of that really sucks. Looking back on those years, I remember how angry I felt inside. It’s not pretty to write about it or remember it — but it is the sad truth…
I spent a night in jail two different times. It was crazy scary, and I can’t begin to tell you how frightening it was. There was no toilet seat on the toilet and no mattress on the bed, just bare metal on both. I felt like a caged animal. I have no idea how people spend long periods of time in jail.
I later got involved in personal development with my wife. I remember thinking back then how happy I would be when I became rich. I thought money was the answer to all my problems and being fulfilled and to loving life.
The Rage Monster Inside Of Me
During the personal development journey, I discovered spirituality. Hearing about love and peace really resonated with me. I think I must have read every spiritual book written. Sadly, I thought in my head I was love and peace, BUT I would get done meditating and often find myself shouting at my wife at the top of my lungs. No matter how much I tried to convince myself and others how spiritual I was, the rage monster inside of me would continue to show up and it felt like I had no control over it.
Looking back on it now, the Spiritual Ego was covering for the person I was really being in the world. The Spiritual Ego was made of the stories and lies I was telling myself and the world— that I was Mr. Love & Peace. When in fact it was the opposite of who I was in the world.
I now know why I got into Spirituality. I didn’t want to physically hurt anyone again. It was my way of hiding from who I was at the time.
I Needed Someone Else To Love Me…
I had read as many spiritual books as I could to convince myself that I was a spiritual guru. So I wrote a book that was going to make me feel great, get rich, become important; and people were going to love me. I needed someone else to love me because I didn’t love myself.
I left a job at a Nuclear power plant where I made a lot of money to pursue the publication and promotion of my book. As a child I was told how unworthy I was — having this job was my way of trying to prove my worth. Because it paid a lot, gave me status — and if you did my job, you were supposed to be smart.
I was not happy at work because I only did it for the money, and money didn’t feed my Soul. My story at that time was: I had a great job, but hated what I did. As a result I was not a great employee and I never gave 100 percent. Unconscious about it at the time, I let the poison inside control my effort and happiness at work.
I Remembered Past Trauma
My wife came home one day and said she had found a Spiritual teacher, and she wanted to do her program. Of course, as I was thinking at the time that I was already a Spiritual expert I said to her, “No way, I’m not going. You go and have a great time.” After a lot of convincing from my wife I joined her to attend the Spiritual weekend. During the retreat I found out I had been severely abused growing up. I had suppressed it and didn’t remember it happening. I realized how much rage I had bottled up in me.
I am very blessed to say I healed from my abuse in the past — thanks to the Spiritual group and the deep work that helped me come to terms with my past beliefs and stories. Because I know looking back on it, if I hadn’t chosen to continue to heal myself, I would have ended up committing suicide or being homeless or going to jail again. Knowing this, I am extremely grateful and committed to giving back to others.
I Walked Away From My Book!
My book was published for six months, and I was in the Spiritual group for about the same amount of time as I walked away from my book!
I had lost my excitement and desire. And I stopped marketing it and wanted nothing to do with it. My heart, soul, and spirit knew I was not the person I needed to be to represent my book at that time.
Years later my spiritual teacher encouraged me to read my own book as I was struggling with believing my book was good — with the person I was when I wrote it. After a couple of months of coaxing from my teacher I finally read it. I was shocked about how good it was. I read it as a new person experiencing the book for the first time, not as the author. I even read it a second time because that’s how inspired I was.
How Old Stories Beliefs Affect Our Lives…
The book’s message is simple yet profound: it helped the new me understand how to feel alive by freeing myself from the stories and beliefs from the past. This is a message for all of us: None of this is our fault, it’s just what we were taught to believe. And how those old stories and beliefs affect the rest of our lives. I told my wife I have to tell the world about this book — it can help a lot of people. And my story has become my fuel – my calling to help others.
I will live in a world where what I had to go through will not happen to little boys and girls! If a child doesn’t get bullied at home, it won’t bully others. I will use my voice to inspire others to be a kind Hero in spite of the darkness they have endured and to be the change they want to see in the world.
Awaken The Hero Inside Of You
I now understand that I saw darkness, and I was part of the darkness in the world, to know darkness to become light. I have found peace, and I will show others the peace that is natural in all.
I am blessed to know the pain from the past, which has led me to be of service to the world today, to bring joy and love that comes with our freedom from the past.
There’s a Hero inside you that wants to be awakened to the passion, joy, and purpose inside of you. To live and feel free from the past and unleash the true you into the world. You and the world are waiting for your peace, love, kindness and compassion — the true you.
I’m committed to the Courageous Heart Hero inside of you!
Hey, my friend, if you made it this far there’s a reason…
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